Thank you guys so much for your encouragement. When I first started fostering I thought it would be all fun and cuddles, but I was wrong.
This kitten season I have lost 3 and it is very hard. I was asked today why I continue to foster knowing that I could lose a kitten, and there was no hesitation when I replied. I am saving lives. Yes, it is hard to lose such a young soul, but through this kitten season I have saved 25 kittens. There is no question on whether I want to quit because I lose one, it is heart breaking, but I couldn’t imagine my life without knowing that I am doing something that matters. It is not about me, it is about them.
Today I got a new litter of 5 four week old kittens. I have never seen fear like I see in these guys’ eyes. They have either never been around humans, or have never had a good experience with them. They are petrified of me, and it’s hard. But I see hope, they shake a little less each time I am near them, they are less petrified and are exploring more and more.
That’s what gets me, seeing a kitten blossom into something beautiful. That’s why I do it, and that’s why I put myself in the difficult position, not knowing if the kitten will make it or not, but being there when they do and become something better, it’s priceless.