Hi Everyone. I am usually trying to give advice and prayers but tonight I could really use some advice and good vibes.
I even told those wonderful women to get out of their horrible marriages within “Fed up with Huuby”. I have known for a while now I need to move.
I am 27 years old and have not moved away from home yet. Up until this past December 06 I was still in college getting my teaching credential. Starting Jan. I started applying to school districts near by for substitute and full-time teaching positions so I could start saving up to move out. My goal was set for June of 08. But my stepfather and I keep clashing alot now. He and I have offend butted heads but lately it has gotten worse.
He is becoming more of an A**hole and control freak everyday. He complains when I get behind on my chores (drying/putting dishes away, sweeping the floor, crushing cans and dog poop clean up duty). Now I am not being lazy. I work from either 8:15 to 5:15, 8:30 to 5:30 or 9 to 6pm in Palo Alto, Mind you I live in Morgan Hill so I get stuck in commute traffic both ways. What should be a 45 minute drive turns into a 1 hour and 30 minutes to a 2 hour commute to work and back home. Most nights I don’t get home until 7:30 or 8 o’clock. I would do the chores indoors but my stepdad is an ultra light sleep. I swear if a mouse farted in the middle of the night he would hear it and wake up.
I have one more week and then I will be back to substitute teaching full-time and possibly take on 2 home and Hospital students to work with until docs clear them to return to school. Which will mean I will still be getting home after 7pm.
Which means I will still be behind on chores. I have tried everything I could to defuss this problem between my stepdad and I but it isn’t working. It’s to the point I feel like he resents me living here taking up time with my mom that should be his. But, I rarely talk to my mom anymore, to be honest as much as I work I don’t talk to or see any friends and family anymore it’s like I am still in school and can never seem to find any down time. My mom is usually going to bed as I come inand we tell each other good night, and how much we love each other and share a quick hug and kiss and then we go to our rooms.
I’m just to the point that feel weiry, and so tired or the nagging, b****ing, and stress not to mention just tired after a long day of driving and work. I want out but I am stuck becuase I don’t make enough to pay for rent, medical, dental, car insurance let alone groceries and gas.
I have been going searches for places to move to within my work area but everything is $1300 and up and most of my paychecks are just a little under $1000 when combined.
A friend and I have been talking of getting a placed together but he doesn’t have a job which is why my goal was next summer so he could find a job keep it and save up but I just don’t know if I can wait.
It’s getting to the point my writing and poems are starting to drift into darkness again. I don’t even have a feline companion to cuddle with to help relieve the stress because my stepfather refuses to let me get a cat becuase they are messy, smelly and sneaky.
I always had a feline love of my life until I turned 13 and my mom married him. I have a dog (well as long as he’s not around otherwise I don’t exsist).
Does anyone have any advice? Reccomendations or suggestions of where or how I can go about looking for lower income housing options.
Thank you for letting me rant. I just needed to blow some steam or I felt like I would explode.
Ange